Update:: she passed on July 5th 2024...

mother is living w/dyeing from stage 4 bone cancer, she found out this week that her tumor markers are up to 284 from 123 last month and before that was in the 20s, I am doing my best to take all this in, and honestly I do not know how I am going to handle the progression of her cancer mentally and emotionally, and I will feel lost, that feeling of being left behind like when I was about 5yo acting up in the store over a toy and she said fine stay here and throw that tantrum and walked away and went up the next isle and I thought she left without me... :'( I love my mom and my cousin and my entire family soon very much, and I know that we will all get through this, that it's possible and others have overcome this overwhelming sadness and emptiness, I just know that if I had the power, the means , whatever it requires and or consists of to cure this bs for everyone else so that nobody ever had to suffer from the pains and everything cancer does to someone and those who suffer from the loss or just seeing a loved one going through this I would jump on that task and hit it with all I've got, and if I myself had that opportunity, ability to Patent and claim it as my own discovery and claim all Rights to such I would immediately place it to be mass manufactured and available to everyone in need and find a way to gain donations through fundraisers and so on by whatever means to collect funds simply to make sure that those working hard to manufacture get it out were paid for their time, not for a profit nor personal gain much my mother was able to apply for and given a grant to cover most of the cost of her chemo pills priced around $1k-$2k (PER PILL), which has now hit a plateau and is no longer doing anything to help, so they are starting her on a different one next week which she will take 4 of them twice a day.... ...and if you have continued to read my entire rant, concerns, opinions, on this thank you.